a process

well here i am, all graduated and such. im kinda driving myself crazy because i feel like thats all ive ever talked about lately, nothing else. but i guess in a strange odd way, its been my life for a while. its consumed my life.
today, a slightly random thought, i felt like God was really telling me something. during sunday school and then throughout the service, it was like all about being a good testimony. and i started thinking and wondering if thats what people see when they look at me. i would like to think that when they do they see a girl who is madly in love with Jesus, and has an uncompramising relationship with Him, or maybe they only see Jesus. but sadly, thats most likely what they dont see. i think back to times at work, i had so many oppurtunities to share the love of my savior, but yet i didnt. i couldnt think of what to say, i got choacked up, or i was to scared. but thats total crap becuase why should i be scared of what 1 or 2 people think of me when i tell them about my daddy who died for me? its not fair. i guess this is just something i need to work on, being bold for Jesus
yup, this is gonna be a long process,
Jo