Different

Tonight is different, in many ways, than all the other nights that I've posted. First being that it isn't super late. Next is that instead of my normal "blah" playlist of Norah Jones, tonight I listen to David Crowder and Kari Jobe. Tonight, I am not in a momentary slum of depression, but caught in a large pond of worry. It is a pond becuase it's not big enough to be a lake, but yet more than a puddle. Tonight, instead of depressing me more or giving me reason to be sad or have that 'blah' feeling, the music is uplifting me and encouraging me.

So what brings about the worry? Monday night, I am going to Port Huron to present my missions trip to South Africa, and I'm slightly stressing about it. All the thoughts of "What if I sound like a total retard with every word I speak?" or "What if the people there could care less about what I have to say?" and then theres the good ole "Why would they want to hear me talk about anything?" So tonight I sit here with all those thoughts racing through my head. But at the same time a feeling of comfort and peace is washing over those thoughts making them fade away. This feeling is telling me that God has called me to this, and when He calls His children, it's not a half hearted calling!

I'm trying to think of all the reasons for things. Such as, why did I choose South Africa? Or, Why Global Expeditions? I'm not doubting this, but just wondering how do I explain to about 50 people who don't know? Honestly, all I can say is that this is where God wants me this summer. He laid going on a missions trip on my heart, told to me go to South Africa and to go with Global Expeditions. Now, all I have to do is follow my daddy's calling.

The incredible thing is that God HAS called me to go, and He's been providing! He provided over $500 in one month! As of now, he's provided over $3,000! And I know He will continue to provide.

So God, here I am right now. Your daughter who longs to whole heartedly follow your will. Thank you for your peace, for your comfort and for your unending and unwavering love. Thank you for your provision!

Where YOU lead, I'll follow,

Joanna