ok so right now, it's weird. I want to cry and feel like I need to, but I have no clue over what. I feel blah (emotionally) and I don't know why. I feel like I should be depressed or something, but you guessed it, I have no reason to! So here I sit, with only the sound of my fan wondering why it is that I'm in this "funk".
Possibility #1: Tonight I went to see 'Letters To Juliet', and it's a all time chick flick. Maybe the whole romance of the movie has left me wanting more. I mean yes, I've always wanted to get married and have always wanted a relationship like the ones in the movies(maybe not exactly like it). But it just seems lately this has been hitting me a lot. So then this want for a relationship like that leads me into feeling the usual feelings of 'why don't I have someone?' or 'what's wrong with me?' and then I just throw myself an all out pity party. This leads no where!
Possibility #2: Could it be stress? I mean schools over, so thats out but yet there is the stress over the whole South Africa thing. Pretty much just the "will all the money come in?" wonderment. But thats retarded, because duh Joanna, you don't have to worry about that, it's taken care of!
Possibility #3: Honestly, I can't think of a third reason. Maybe it's because my best friend is in Kansas and I can't just call her and go to walmart with her? Maybe. Or that I feel alone sort of.I sort of just feel like yeah, I see friends a lot, but yet I don't have a true, deep friendship with them. It never goes deeper then the surface. Again, I know this isn't true.
Pick which ever possible explanation for this funk you like best. Because right now, you're guess is as good as mine! So, for now , I'll get away from my beloved computer and go to sleep. Maybe just lay here for a while and think or cry or get things figured out.
Off to sort out the confusion,
Jo
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