will you?

so god here i am again, in the same place that ive tried to run from so many times. ive come so self absorbed ive compleatly missed you! im so sorry that ive let myself getting farther and farther away and that ive given in to this. im such a hypocrite. in one minute im praising you and singing to you my savior, then the next im just doing what i want, forgetting about you and about what youve done for me. daddy, thats not how it should be, not how i want it to be or not even what i need it to be! i need you, every single step of the way! i need you here!! but im so dumb i just keep pushing you farther and farther. when will i stop being so dumb and just let you lead? im so dumb, i guess i cant blame me, im such a screw up and a failure so i can really expect much more, so whatever. but God i know i need you here, and i know i need to just focus on me. so if youre willing, will you take me back again? me the being the retarded ugly failure i am, ill probaly let you down again, but just this time, will you take me back?