dark waltz...

i know no one actually reads this so in a way its a good place to vent. im so tired of my life right now, i guess nothings new. im tired of just being stepped on, of having everything blamed on, of always being wrong according to others, of always being left out and of never being heard or even noticed actually. i mean yes i have friends, and i thank God for them but i guess tonight is just one of those times when enough is enough and i just cant hold it in anymore. im mad, im ticked off and im annoyed. i dont think its specifically one person, maybe its just me. im mad that i never let myself show when im mad, im annoyed that i talk so much that eventually people just dont care and tune me out, im mad that i am who i am. its like in the movies how there's always that one girl that no on notices, right now i feel like thats me. no one seemingly listens to a word i say, and even if they do its always wrong according to them. and when something goes wrong, seems like its just automaticaly my fault, even if i was never told or i had no clue what was going on. i hate so much who i am, how i look, what i act like, and how act. i cannot even think of a single thing about myself i like. im just a retarded weak girl, who is just invisible and doesnt matter...