He is FAITHFUL!

Well, God is most definitely good! I feel like lately my posts have just been a list of complaints. Not going to lie, I feel like that's all that has been going on in my life. Right now, when I sit back and think of the four months that I've been back from Africa...it's been rough. A car died, a computer died, I felt rejected, useless, so discontent. It's pretty safe to say that I was pretty much under attack. But I know that my God is greater than it all!
I know this sounds like the beginning of a post that talks about all the awesome things that have happend. But there haven't been that much. I mean other than Jesus working, of course. But right now I think of whats to come and it's all good! Right now, as I type I am printing off my YWAM (Youth With A Mission) application, thinking of places I could apply for a second (or just a different) job, and having a renewed faith that God is going to provide.

Not having my own computer has, well...sucked. I never realized how attached I was to that thing, until it died. I keep looking at laptops online and getting overwhelmed by the price. I'm not even close to being ready to buy right now, so why do I keep looking? I feel like I'm only messing with myself by doing that. But I am looking for a new laptop, slowly looking. I would like a Macbook, but who knows.

But...all this to say this: Yes, I have had to share a car for a month and half-ish, I do not have my own computer, and I barely make enough to buy Christmas gifts. But my God is so good! I know He will provide! He's going to bring in the money needed to go to Rwanda, He'll provide the second job or new job that I need. I know He will provide the money that I need for the things I need. Bottom line, He is faithful! But nonetheless, I am human and I get to caught up in what I don't have, what I "need" or what I want. I get focused on things I have to spend money on. So prayers are always appreciated, if anyone even reads this.

Oh, and guess what guys? Only like 18 days till Christmas!!!