Late at night, or early in the morning, which ever you prefer

Hello, or good night. Here I am, at about 1 am on now January 8, 2010. I know alot of times I am still awake and going strong at this time, but tonight is a bit different. I got all snuggled into my bed at about 10:30 tonight with high hopes of falling asleep fast and getting some very restful sleep. However, I was very unsuccessful. After just lying there for a while, I grabbed my laptop, got online and watched, not one but two, useless episodes of some lame show that profits me nothing. After that, I decided it was now time for sleep. But yet it didn't come. So I got up and did a few (very few) sit ups and crunches, then crawled back into bed. I grabbed my mp3 player and immeadiatly went to Skillet (yes, this relaxes me in a weird way). But after a few songs my eyes refused to close, so I grabbed my Bible. I wasn't sure where to read so I just began at the beginning, since I don't read it often. All through the one chapter, one repeated theme sort of just grabbed me. "God said it was good" so this is the whole reason for this blog tonight. This just hit me. God didn't say it was ok, or passable, or just mediocre, but it was GOOD! He was happy with what He had made, He saw it as beauty! But yet so many times I look at the very same creation and see nothing but problems. "God said it was good" didn't just apply to the flowers, trees, animals or waters, but to the people, the ones created in HIS image. While reading and pondering at the same time, I began to wonder, if God saw it as good, why can't I? Aside from the fact that God is perfect in every way and I am so stinkin far from perfect, I was seriously wondering, why don't I see Gods creation as good? God is the creator of EVERYTHING the entire universe, the animals and the infinate amount of species of mushrooms, God did it. He made me, not to be like all other humans but to be like Him. I am molded after Him and in His likeness. This reminded me of a video I saw on youtube (I'll try to post the link on here) called "God's Chisel" and it's all about how God made us with free will, not just as robots. And part of being His child is allowing Him to chisel away at us, to let Him make us that person that would make Him say "It is good!" Everytime I watch this video the tears come rolling down my cheek, but yet I forgot the whole message of it all, almost as soon as the video is done. God does not make junk! He made His creation good, and saw that it was good at the very beginning. I pray that God will mold me into that perfect creation.

Hopefully now that thats all jotted down, I will be able to find sleep! =)

-Joanna