Random Ramblings...who knows where it'll lead.

It's a snowy, well I actually don't know if it's still snowing or not, Wednesday night. Church was cancelled so I'm home wasting time, and I feel weird. So what do I do? Log on to blog spot and crank up the Norah Jones. In the words of a deep philosopher, "Hm... that girl pulls something from your soul and just throws it on the table in plain sight. When your in the mood that is." I think shes on to something. So I guess here's my pulled thing, up on the table...

Lately I've felt stressed over like everything! I don't know what, but I just felt like a huge cloud of worry is above me at all times.

Maybe it's stress of my whole job thing and from not having money to do like anything. Although I technically have a job, my hours are close to non-existent. I've looked for another one, so far have had two interviews, and have been turned down from one of them. And the other, I'm still waiting to here.

Maybe it stress from school. I have 3 classes right now, all a bit hard for me. The first is a science, which I'm stupid in, so I get lost. The second is a world civ taught by a man who I'm pretty sure is an atheist and has said on many occasions Christians are idiots and fools. Then the third is a math class which I am almost as stupid in as I am in science. So this semester is a bit rough. Never knowing if I am doing my homework right, never sure if I actually understand what they're saying and not to mention, none of them really have anything to do with my actual major, so it's rough.

And the third possible cause for stress? I guess I really don't know. Maybe from trying to balance fundraising for my trip to South Africa, planning a spaghetti dinner, trying to pass my classes, trying to keep up my friendships, trying to live frugally and to have time to enjoy life. Ugh...looking at the surface I dare say, no one would ever see this.

So tonight, as I sit listening to Norah Jones, filled by freshly made cookies and in my comfy clothes, I think I've come to a conclusion. Maybe just for a while I need to shut out stuff that's getting me distracted from the very things I am trying to do or avoid. Like stay off of facebook so I can do homework. Or by leaving my money at home so I wont buy things I don't need. But the solution that's sticking out to me the most is to just simply spend time with the one who understands all the ramblings of my mind that even I don't understand. So tonight, this is my goal. Instead of going to bed when I'm tired, or when my movie or show is done, I will turn everything off, and just spend time with my Jesus. Just me and Him. Maybe through that alone time, this stress would be lifted, or I would feel content with where I am in life right now.

So tonight, this is my goal.

-Jo