Confessions...

Honestly, my quiet times have been terrible lately. Terrible in the sense of...not really existing. I'm way to good at making excuses for myself. I'm too tired, I work two jobs, its ok to sleep a bit more,etc, etc. It's really quite pitiful. But lately, the Lord has put something in me that kicks me out of bed in the morning. When there are still those days of sleeping more, He still shows me things. Somehow, I still find time to spend with Him during my busy day, even if its just like 20 minutes.

So, in my first "real" quiet time (real meaning a few things: 1. 45-60 minutes long 2. prayer, worship, and the word are all involved and 3. I can put my Bible, journal and pen down knowing that the Lord just showed me something) in quit a while, I was blown away. A while ago I started reading in Jeremiah. Unfortuantly, I hadn't gotten very far. So this was the day for chapter 2 (see, I really didn't get far at all!). Here's Jeremiah 2:2

"I remember you, the kindness of your youth, the love of your betrothal,

when you went after me in the wilderness..."

The fact that I read this on my day of "coming back" made me go crazy! The Lord is so good! Realizing, or maybe remembering, the fact that He hasn't just thrown me away. He knows me, He knows the desires and passions He's placed in me. He clearly remembers the days when I had to pry myself away from the word. He remembers those days when even the thought of meeting with Him made me like a giddy bride! He remembers me.

How often I read my Bible does not change whether or not He loves me. It doesn't change the fact that He is calling me to Africa and constantly calling me draw close to His side. He is so good!