James 1:27

Right now I sit here in awe of Jesus. Just last night I was telling a friend how I felt like I was going crazy. Doubt and worry filled my mind. Thoughts of "What if I was wrong?" and "What if this isn't where God wants me, then what?" But last night, I went home and just cried out to Jesus. Told Him everything, even though He was already well aware of it all. Eventually I feel asleep feeling nothing, maybe even feeling worse then before. My alarm went off this morning, and immeadiatly the doubt and worry set in again. Later this morning, I saw that I had an email...from YWAM Rwanda. I just held my phone there for a while, staring at what the email said "We got your application and we're excited to see you in January".

I AM ACCEPTED! I'M GOING TO RWANDA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 Ahhhhhh....I wanted to scream and just giggle (actually, I did...uncontrollably).

I get to go to Rwanda and be the hands and feet of Jesus to orphans and widows. I get to spend 6 months in Africa (3 in Rwanda 3 in...not sure where yet!) and be challenged to grow closer to the Lord! I get to go to South Africa this summer then a few months later hop back onto a plane! Jesus is so good!

It's so funny how doubt, fear and worry can creep in, just because things aren't going the way you think they should. In my mind, I was expecting an official email, with an official acceptance note on it, within a short time. And when it didn't happen the way I wanted it to, I freaked out (much like a spoiled child...tantrums and all, just ask one of my friends). But now I can boldy say...the Lord has called me to Rwanda!